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The usual suspects were gathered at the Sutton Fannish Flophouse following GAFilk (Debbie Ohi, Jodi Krangle, Terrence Chua, Dave Rood... later Rob Wynne) when Debbie's cell phone rang. Dave Weingart spreading the so sad news of Dave Alway's death. Those calls always make my stomach go cold, when you hear the happy voice change to the stunned, "What! Oh no!" Nothing good is going to come after that. I hate those moments.

We were all in tearful shock, sharing stories of Dave, passing the tissue box. "What were your best memories?" Thinking about it, there was no question for me. Dave was a poet, and a darned good one, too. He recited one called "Madison's Mourning" that moved me on a soul level, and whenever I had the chance, I'd ask him to perform it. I requested a copy, and he gave me his hand-written copy, that I tucked into my filk book, and later I recopied it into one of my "empty books."

I went out a'huntin' to find that poem, tearing through my filk books, my journals, my stacks of filing, trying to find that poem. Debbie came in from the gaming in the next room to tell me that Peter Alway was on Filkhaven, so I moved over to that site and asked him if he knew where I could find it. "Dave posted a lot of his poetry on LJ. You might find it there." (Lightbulb!)

So I went there and worked through Dave's Archive, going back, and back. There are some wonderful poems in there, including several where Dave was comforting others who experienced the loss of a loved one. Tears, tears, tears...

And then I found it in the 2003 archive, so I'm going to quote it here for you:


"Madison's Mourning"
By Dave Alway, 11/18/2003


The sun sets down behind the trees
The old and ancient druid trees,
The water from the fountain slows
The water slows and then it stops.


I see my breath upon the cold,
A cold as bitter as she was bold:
She stayed far longer than she should
And lived far more than any would.


Lays of the Moon. Lays of the Sun:
Here's an old woman laid low.
Lays of the Sun. Lays of the Moon:
Drifts of the wind-silvered snow.


The girl sat down before our trees,
The old trees with the growing leaves:
She poured the water of her soul;
The water pours and never stops.


Our children work and make and say:
"We grow great and happy today;"
Our children's children are mine and hers,
But few compared to the vast Out There's.


Lays of the Moon. Lays of the Sun:
Here's an old woman laid low.
Lays of the Sun. Lays of the Moon:
Drifts of the wind-silvered snow.


The stars of the North wheel above,
Constant and timeless as my love:
The turning stars, ever slow,
The light from the stars never stops.


Our Humans went to the wand'ring stars:
The land of black and golden flares,
And left me here to harp and play
And dance my hooves to the coming day.


Lays of the Moon. Lays of the Sun:
Here's an old woman laid low.
Lays of the Sun. Lays of the Moon:
Drifts of the wind-silvered snow.

Current Location:
Home
Current Mood:
grieving
Current Music:
The voices of loving friends
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On January 10th, 2007 06:16 pm (UTC), [info]efire360 commented:
Thanks for posting the poem. I lost my grandmother last night.
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On January 10th, 2007 08:57 pm (UTC), [info]ladyat replied:
Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. When I read this, I went back and read your earlier post. Your grandmother sounds like an amazing person, and a great influence on the woman that you became. I'm so very sorry for your sadness.

Is there anything that I can do?

Love ya...

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On January 10th, 2007 10:00 pm (UTC), [info]efire360 replied:
It still hasn't really hit me yet. It takes a while for the waves to come. I'm too good at surviving and operating under extreme stress. I called everyone up, made a post, canceled weekend plans, arranged for a ride to the airport, arranged for friends to check on my pets. When I get home, I have to pack, do laundry and tidy up a bit. It won't hit me until I'm standing beside her. No, not until I have the time to rest and feel.

I loves you, too. I'll let you know if I'll need any help getting through this one. Getting through the first Grandmother's death took a lot out of me. This time, I have more friends to call upon when I need help. Thank you and hugs back.

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On January 10th, 2007 09:41 pm (UTC), [info]tigertoy commented:
Dammit, now I'm once again trying not to cry out loud and freak out my officemates.

I remember that Dave wrote a moderately lengthy explanation of this poem somewhere on LJ. It might not have been in his journal. There is a little bit of explanation with the 2003 post of this poem, but my memory insists that he said more about it somewhere sometime. But while I actually remembered to mark the poem itself as an LJ memory, I didn't do so with the explanation (assuming it really exists and isn't just a figment of my demented imagination).

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On January 11th, 2007 07:17 am (UTC), [info]peteralway commented:
Thank you.
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On January 11th, 2007 05:25 pm (UTC), [info]ladyat replied:
Dear Peter,
I want to ask your permission to reprint this poem in the upcoming issue of Mythic Passages. The theme of the issue is "Time" and "Madison's Mourning" would not only fit extremely well, but be a tribute to a poet who passed before his time. I'm only very sorry that it took Dave's death to make this connection, and that I didn't think of it while he was alive and would have appreciated it. Very sorry.

May I, please?

Brenda

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On January 11th, 2007 06:28 pm (UTC), [info]peteralway replied:
I think it would be fine, but you should ask my brother Bob (<lj user="bigbumble>) first. Bill should have his email.
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On January 12th, 2007 03:18 am (UTC), [info]ladyat commented:
Peter and Bob Alway have given permission for me to publish Dave's poem in the upcoming issue of Mythic Passages. The magazine's monthly theme is "Time" and the release date is January 16th.

I hope that it is a fitting tribute to a poet who passed too soon. My regret is that I didn't make this connection when Dave was still alive to enjoy it.

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